How to love
How to care for themselves
How to articulate their feelings
How to communicate
How to get through one day to the next
My motherhood has been quite a journey as it has required me to grow as a person. My circle of friends changed because some friends did not have children. My world became demanding. When I had children it was no longer just about me. I'll admit, at times caring for two small children at the age of 21 made me sad not because I had children, but because of who, what, when, and how. I wasn't able to run off with my friends as I once did. I wasn't able to have normal conversations over the phone without babies crying in the background. Sometimes I had to put the person on hold to quickly care for babies who depended solely on me. I remember feeling hopeless in having my children because it wasn't how I envisioned or planned. Nevertheless, I am honored and blessed to be their Mom.
A lot of times when I discuss how unhappy I was with how I spent my twenty's, people automatically hint at, "that's your fault." Or, "you had a choice." The reality of that is harsh. Especially hearing it from a person's mouth. In my younger years I lived as if I was invincible. I had all my years ahead of me, I'm young, is what I thought to myself everyday I woke up. I'm still young, now in my thirty's, however I'm much more aware of my choices as I navigate life.
Motherhood for me is full of rewards. I get to watch my children who started off as blabbing, drooling, goo-goo gaa bundle of joys to curious, questioning, adventurous small people. My favorite and will be most memorable moments are teaching my children how to walk, talk, catch, hold a spoon because those milestones were all part of motor gross skills; however, the developement stage to normal accuracy was a learning tool that is life satisfying. It's like planting a garden from scratch and seeing the vegetables sprout from the ground. How exciting is that! To harvest what one's time is invested in.
Motherhood for me is like a garden! Fruits and Veggies of life.
What is your motherhood in a nutshell?
TTYL,
MommyNMeTours 💋